Friday, June 8, 2012


The hands are a broken place to be when there is nothing to touch,
my hands are not hands without something to impress,
concrete, bone, teeth, grab, grab, grabbing
for daffodils that no longer laugh,
for nocturnal bluebirds,
and tin-men filled with lemon-yellow moxie
in slices of a pie, I have only had one without weight
I’ve heard jazz before, but not quite like this
it moves like a woman, like the woman I’d rather be
sass with class, and legs that make walking look like honey burning
and only when your breath between words falls on my breasts
could I ever unzip leather, and flush the fear of my inner Marilyn
Of course I play in the thoughts that this is abandoned
of all the whiskey and all the wolves,
that a greater resolve is held liable, some grandiose gavel beating,
the internal clock we’ve been pacing ourselves to,
and it has been some-time now,
Still, my hands remain nothing but wrists with growths,
ten tiny songstresses attached lookin’ to grab
ten minuscule voices stretching for gold,
met by ten commandments whipping them back,
and holding their outlandish destinations hostage.   

[Paying the cost to the boss, BB King - INspired.]

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Moving Movers on the board.

The anger anchors me to the toilet seat,

the one next to the one that USED to work

on Thomas and Denny,

(the anger) it blindfolds me but I can still hear you

walking by, talking about the "PRISIMS" you folded,

oragami piano, oragami sandbox, oragami sandbox

with little oragami shells of women birthing

little oragami orgasms

restless, that's what I am, as I sit, rather SQUIRM

anchored to the can watching you jack off onto each other,

no one cares if it gets in their eyes here,

tears mean MOVEMENT, the more, the merrier,

well I MADE the mold, breakable,

I was the first to CARE about not giving a fuck,

and just when I think you might be doing it

with just a little more jazzzzzzzzz than me

I realize I've climbed up and over,

chimmied up a fireplace, and found a holding cell

somewhere between a satalite dish and Mt. Rainer

Let's see if you can MAKE IT here.

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Tuesday, January 31, 2012

It happened with the speed of the fluids that flood the body, mimicking your emotions when your words cannot, pink to the cheek, sea to the eye, acid in throat, urine seems to leak as the lips curl into each other, ying, yang. I walked home tonight with two bags full of food for the hungry fever I live above, heavy and tugging at my arms, the bottom breaks, and the soup fills the cement cracks and steams. I missed you then. The rest of the walk home my headphones were pointed outward, singing to the world, all I could hear was muffled speak. Like you laughing into a pillow. Like taking a step back from your painting, I could see the edge where the canvas stopped, and there was nothing but air, translucent and ominous, such a teasing mystery. And I'm angry because for the first time I see it all. I see the beginning, tinted purple and full of fear, and the end, quite the same. But the core, the waist of it all, was flawless, "a tumbling muse" found hers. 8 good months padded by five weeks to start, and five weeks to end, of selfishness. I was certain that this was it, the soft hands I'd curl into each night, and rise from for each new day. Every pair I had met prior to these, my blood in their veins or not, were too coarse, or suede, permanently damaged by my wetness. Like a delicacy, they just wanted to taste me, grope me while they could.

i thought i had it
i thought i had it
i thought i had it
i thought i had it
i thought i had it

She decides to leave the blow up mattress next to the twin bed, it's not a body, but it's something. Barefeet, barefloor, bare heartheadfuck beating. I was supposed to end the show with our song, I was supposed to end the show with our song, the soul purpose showing that jaded, is not jaded forever. But once again I stand here, rather sit and watch myself part from myself, put on a leather jacket and walk out.

He's gone. Is the room half empty or half full? [hahaha]

Sunday, January 29, 2012

in the end of a spark, there is a void
where even god and space are defeated, trampled
an unholy mass of lead, laughs
and that's where i found you,
and continue to find you,
there, in the sleeping belly of the months
there, in between the waxing and waning
of your wayward whims with witty wackos

i stay up haunted and hunting for you
nostalgia of a time you "gave a damn"
anchors me to self indulgence like
some fucking thirteen year old twat,
dear dairy, today i was robbed,
i didn't see it coming,
we thought she was full of light, touched by god,
and untouched by man
she came in with three swords
gave me ONE and challenged me
oblivion seemed softer than
witnessing the execution of your senses
you walked back to the coast blind
with two numb feet
a humiliating sight, but you just
could,
not,
see,
it.

So I held up silver two times heavier than me
with one paralyzing but rhythmic point to god
I KNOW THE TRUTH
I know the gutters in which your mother shat you out into
and that you've been trying to climb back up the pipe ever since,
that you settle for the mundane idea of love because social acceptance
and your animal are just a little too fucking real for you,
Betty Paige and Betty Crocker are one in the same, to you,
I know the original font of your words,
and the mores code of your walk,
I know the truth

grass. wet. sky. green. lawn chairs. the unseen. temples and gypsy queens. forget about it. yellow wallpaper blues. fucking cause it's hot outside. forget about it. wet. grass. green. sky. chairs. lawn. seen un the. queen gypsy temples. and yellow wallpaper BLUES.

Just another box inside of a box inside of box inside of a profile with another name of someone you met once at the bar who has an uncanny resemblance to the first girl who sucked your dick in eighth grade. How good it was to be young! How good it was to hang suspended above responsibility, moving your pieces around the board.





Sunday, January 22, 2012

DJ Too Fresh.

we were all too drunk to see,
we
were
all
too drunk
to see,
tripping over our tongues,
fisting with every stranger,
gumming words together, twisting
egos like a dictatorship, the children bake on the burner
here at the cha cha split level, feed your belly upstairs,
feed the demons down


  • we've met before? oh, yeah, yeah, what was your name again?
  • Steve.
    • (the shadow tamer)
  • Oh right, right, you're the guy who showed up to my last show and ate shit hella bad, huh?
  • Uh, yeah, that's me... the shit eater
  • Right, well I'm going jump in, my blood is growling... but uh we'll catch up later
we were all too drunk to notice, drooling into our miniature glasses 
and shooting it back into us again
our shape is a circle, 
we never go anywhere we haven't already been

  • Your name is Pete, right?
  • Steve.
    • (the articulated artist's dream)
  • Oh, right, right... WAIT, you're that guy who showed up to Frankie's last show and ate shit super bad, huh?
  • Yep, that's me... THE SHIT EATER
  • Well cool man, I gotta piss
we were all too drunk to see, grinding and hoping to lead this carcass to sheets
where we will fuck ourselves back into our mother's arms, 
the little hand stabs 2
and the herd coagulates quickly,
like oil in water, finding its self again,
the rage machines!
the rock and roll hermaphrodites, sadists and idiot savants unite!
hike up your tights hunny, burn some pavement, this is Saturday night!

  • Dude, did you what happened to that one guy the other night?
  • Who? Steve?
  • Yeah...

(s) jenn ghetto
in a basement,
i saw her fins hatch from her bare lace back
and plea to transform the atmosphere around them
but
she sent ripples of nothing, and shards of defeat, to her knees
as the crowd in the back absconded faster, and faster,
a nearing winter in their eyes, and the flocks buzz muffling,
jenny was left alone there, newborn, thirsty, stillborn, thirsty,

there is no catching up, when there is no breeze
in this place where only the air-born,
right-brained, HE's with fringgged extremities
are sanctioned to exist,  to own the ground,
to own the air, and every inkling to sea, port, pond, and coast,
feathers beat scales, feathers beat -

their swagger is two inches behind sound,
including jenny's caterwauls,
the poor game---(s),
you should've heard her swim.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

simple child, why did you stay so near?
now your hands have exploded lemon
a sour tang that pries your thighs apart
[enter the void here]
i did not raise you, you have no place in my womb
though you reach for it, thrusting yourself closer
holding back tears like a little bitch
WOULD IT HELP IF I SANG YOU A LULLABY, SISSY BOY?
i keep riding you, pulling my own hair to remind myself I'm still alive,
and i moaned at your lobe for three weeks, waiting for an alert  alarm sound

[[]]
it's paSSST midnight so i'll switched to the unplugged record
turn it down real low and rub one out about, but not limited to,
that time the bookstore on the ave shut down, and how hard it made you when i cried,
 three gallons of salty, sappy, eye piss due to the lack of people READING anymore, 
thank god i am a writer, everything i say stays a secret
                                                           [hahahahaha]
[enter the side door in the hallway of the second void here]
spoken without being spoken, I see it all, this thing, that thing, 
those things that bounce of that thing and go ting, ting, ting, 
one fire breath melting skin, and sand, forming glass, 
forming windows that look onto NO-thing. 
And this is the age we live in, execute our limbs for minimum wage, 
choosing a different way than the corporation so we can stay “green”, 
and create “green” in a way that is “green” , 
occupy renewable resources outsourced inside sustainably, collectively in solidarity
against
them
who are against us pre-teen “green” fiends

We stand still while the upper-class BITES the HANDS that FEED them.

Sunday, January 8, 2012

there are angles

this lamp, sits
day in, day out
nipple twisted
light up, light off
i take in account what i have done to this lamp, tonight
not once have i dusted it, 
it's hat still cooked from the drunken waltz i had with the walls
and last week it's bulb ran out, no flicker or flood, just.... never came home
this lamp, sits
used hard to hardly used
collecting my dead skin cells
as i stare and sit

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

she hides inside of me like a woman,
wanting more, waning more - the less i give her
a serpent, slithering, a slinky and lanky slut begging,
just like her sister and mother
before her, did, for more
bloodstream elevators cater to her,
never skipping a floor, half floor, or bone
three times the speed of limbs to lips
she digests more steadily than she demands
so i can never quite seem to hush her scream
always fornicating, but never lovers
she, and me.